***Beams***

Dear all,

**bear hug to all**

Thanks for the day that was. Had fun :)

You for calling me first (actually I thought you would just wish me over net...and I prefer this much much more...) , you for sending me all the three cards you liked (all the while pretending you forgot it was my b’day) , you for sending me the awesomest card Ever! ..and you all for dropping by.

You people totally made my day :)

See, I can’t stop smiling…*points all my fingers at you lot* :) :)

Gonna get some sleep now, really really tired…Too much happiness makes you tiresome :)

***Hugs everyone once more***

To sis,with love

“Your writing- it might not be something great nor of ‘Oh-wow’ material; but it’s genuine. It’s true; I can see that, I can feel that. And from what life has taught me, people don’t want writings with lotsa metaphors nor hard-words…they just want to be touched, moved…and only truth does that.”

“It’s the greatest feeling ever- getting into bed knowing you’ve done everything you possible could have done that day”

“You can empathize. I can never do that, I only sympathize. There lies the difference. Empathy is a quality you’re born with, sweetheart.”

“With X I talk a lot; although we’ve nothing in common we have endless, meaningless discussions. With Y , we’ve things in common, we share things…and years from now, I see myself still having a relation with Y and not X”

“Never lose perspective.
Never lose sight of your goal.
Coz once you do, then that’s it…you’re done.
It’s over!”

“If you go on like this, five years from now you won’t be able to afford this lifestyle!”

"It’s during difficult times that you need your family the most.”

“Mom’s a li’l eccentric. So what? She’s our mom…play along; you be a li’l eccentric yourself. Simple!”

“Do you know why I think our dad’s the greatest? For other dads, children are a major part of their lives, yet they still have a life of their own. For our dad, We Are his life.”

“Do you know what love is?
Love is when you feel with a person instead of feeling for him.
Love is when you are as happy as he is in his victory.
It’s when you’re as sad, you feel as bad in his loss.
When you cry coz he is crying.”

“I know…I know…Mom can really get on your nerves at times. But never EVER *menacing tone* question her motive…
If all this nagging makes you study a little bit more, if it benefits you in the slightest way possible, she doesn’t mind hearing all that “Gimme a break” statements for that to happen.”


(Her response on me telling her that exam just got postponed while jumping up and down)
"Flyovers never solve the traffic problem; they just move it to some other point. Likewise..." *ahem*

“We haven’t seen each other in what….2-3 months??? :O :O :O I’m dying to come home!”


SO am I…dying for you to come home…
Come home ASAP
Muaaah!



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~50th Post~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The Testimonial Day

Disclaimer : This post since due to the mental state of the ‘postee’ has very inexplicable English. So anybody who is not able to stand English language getting mutilated, I suggest you stop reading right now.

I the very very happy today. Simply.

A day when things go your way.

I having college today, but two of us cutting class in the afternoon going over to third friends home. I before writing testimonials (in orkut) for three friends in class. We publishing it when we get to her house. She and the other girl very very liking it. So I the happy too.

Also a surprise waiting for me. Somebody writing me a real nice testimonial. Totally made my day. Thanks, man :-)

We all thinking we having tuition, all of us wanting to stay back and talk. We calling up sir, keeping our fingers crossed and…Bam! He saying no tuition. We all the victory dancers. *wicked laugh*

We stay talking, gossip all evening. Writing another set of 3 testimonials…proclaiming this day as “testimonial day”…then the third girl leaving and me and R. taking nap.

Then we waking up at 6…going down to park and swinging…long since I swung…me and her all smiles. We having a nice talk. Then we the walking in the lawn, barefoot, talking. I the loving the feel of it. Again both of us all smiles.

Then I taking auto and guess what…the auto playing all my favorite songs inside. And when I getting down I saying thanks and smiling...he too smiling.

I come home and asking a friend to call up, he saying no too busy...I say okay, okay…and the next thing I know, phone’s ringing… :-)

Quite an uneventful yet very very pleasant day.

I the very very happiest today (yeah yeah, said earlier, I know)
Just wanted to tell somebody about it.
Have a great day.

Highs

1. Getting a phone call from people (friends) who rarely call.

2. Old school friend calling to say that she's back home for the weekend or so, asking me to drop by.

3. Someone calling up to thank me for the time we spend together, telling that he had fun.

4. Strikes in college.

5. A good conversation.

6. Friends knowing that I'm not in happy-happy situation without me telling them.

7. Friends getting what I mean without me even having to talk about it.

8. Talking to my sister.

9. Calling up my dad in chennai and hence making his day (I don't call him up the way I should, its always dad who calls me up, so he's pretty surprised everytime I call him up which would be once in a fortnight or so)

10. Making someone smile/laugh.

11. Seeing R's face turn pink when she gets into her hysterical laughter.

12. A's without-pretence expressions, yeah...even the thats-so-disgusting ones too :-D

13. Sitting around cribbing about life with close friends.

14. Watching a movie and realise as it goes on that it's way better than I had expected it to be.

15. Family Dinner, all four of us. Can't remember the last time it happened. With family scattered all around India, it's a once-in-a-bluemoon kinda thing these days.

16. Laughing out loud at a joke which others didn't find that much funny and hence getting are you-mocking-me glance from the person who cracked it..(seriously, I wasn't...Hey, I found it hilarious!)

17. A good cup of coffee.

18. A good read.

19. Planning a vacation.

20. The first few stages of a blossoming friendship when everything seem to be just perfect.

I’m stranded.

Right at crossroads.

Where do I go from here?

Hmm…I close my eyes and try to feel the air I’m breathing in...

“Move! Move faster! Or you will be left behind.”

A push from behind.

“But I don’t wanna move fast. I don’t wanna go that way. What if I wanna be left behind?”

Cruel mocking laugh.

I feel my soul being stamped upon.

“Silly. You have to. Maybe you don’t want to. But you have to.”

I sense the power and assertiveness in the ‘have to’.

Then it comes.

“Sweetie, I should know better than you. I have seen life. You’re better off this way. Trust me.”

Right.

I’m better off this way. Ahem!

Another push. Much stronger this time.


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And I move along.

Along with others.
Coz this is what I “need”.

I see everyone around me.
But I can’t feel them.

Infact I don’t even feel myself anymore.
I’ve become numb.


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“Hurry, honey!”

And I move along….



This I wrote sometime back...when I was quite pissed off at the people around me, the things that I myself was doing and the fact that I was turning into the person that others wanted me to...thinking of which...everything's pretty much the same; the past and the present.