What ‘TITANIC’ taught me

I saw the incredible movie ‘titanic’ once again today- after an interval of 6 yrs. Its really crazy how things like a movie make u realize tht u’ve grown up, like this one just did. Ok….time for a flashback….

6 yrs back, while I was in 7th grade, I fell in love (or so I thought then) for the first time…. with Leonardo di caprio. I got tired of my friends singing its praises and decided to see for myself. So my dad, mom, sis and I went to check it out. And…..the rest is history…or shud I say a lot of drooling in my diary for ages. We loved LOVED the movie, not considering the fact tht my mom not being such a fan of eng movies slept thro’ the whole ordeal except for the occasional ‘wht just happnd?’ questions to my dad which made me happy tht it wasn’t me who was sitting next to her. ok, back to the topic….i’ll always remember this as the first movie which made me cry. Ok, after tht theres been a couple of others …damn the hormones!!!

I was soo touched by their love story back then….I remember crying myself to sleep tht night. And I watched the movie some 7-8-9 times again until I decided to put an end to it and too a vow never to see it again unless I really felt it. And so I dint until yesterday. I saw tht the movie was coming on star moves a few days earlier and I cant put into words, but I had to see it…I just knew. So all plans aside, I sat in front of the TV promising myself tht I won’t cry. But who knew??? But what really surprised me is what actually made me cry…

And I could read more into the characters. Trust me on this, I could relate to ‘rose’ a lot. Not tht I’m engaged to some damn millionaire, she’s more like a bird in a cage with golden bars. But like mahakavi ulloor once said ‘ a cage with golden bars is still a cage’. My family isn’t tht strict on me, but once a while I wanna do things at the spur of the moment. And hell, one of the things life has taught me is tht if u r a girl living in trivandrum, u cant go on a trip to some place north east or even nearby just coz u feel like at tht moment. Courtesy to my mother for this statement. I also feel like trapped within my self sometimes, god knows why…. I’d love to feel as free as I can. Back to the movie…so when she saw someone who shared her free spirit (not to forget with lots of charm n good looks) she fell in love, which I’m sure if someone like tht comes along my way, it wont be long before I’m in love too!

What actually reduced me to tears was the scene where a mother puts her two li’l angels to sleep telling a story where they lived for 300 years blessed with eternal youth. Tht really had me…and I have this dumb thing of imagining myself in other people’s place, which contributes a lot to my tears.
So titanic for me stands for the free spirit and never dying love whether its what a mother feels for her children or what jack n rose felt for each other.

I fell in love with the movie while I was a child and now,7 yrs from then, I’ve realized tht somethings never change!!

my first ever, first day first show movie!!!

Well…I’ve been thinking abt what to write next on my blog…. then it dawned on me…what else than my first ever first day, first show movie experience!!!! And it couldn’t get any better…. RANG DE BASANTI ROCKS!!!!!!! Absolutely rocking!!! The people there so totally LOST CONTROL!!!

The first day first show crowd is amazing….( my eardrums are partially broken:D)…the crowd went berserk during the first scene of Aamir…..I’ve always loved Aamir as an actor, his is the only movie which can guarantee a minimum standard…now about the movie….

The cast is simply perfect…everybody acts soo well n naturally; it’s hard to pick a favorite among ‘em. There are some scenes…which in my pal’s lingo can be said as some ‘katta scenes’: D, u definitely wouldn’t wanna miss…like the scene with aamir and gang jumping into the river/pool (whatever it was), feels like they’re flying…and then there’s the scene where they jump up in the sky with MIG in background….LOVED those scenes!!!

Apart from the movie bein’ awesome, the whole vibe in the theatre was electrifying. U could see die-hard a.r.rahman and aamir fans everywhere….never knew there existed a crowd like this in tvm….

All in all the experience was rocking!!! Yaaaaaayyyy!!!!

Bryan Adams is coming to town!!!

I nearly had a heart attack when I picked up the Hindu metro plus today…Bryan Adams in a concert in b’lore!!!!!! God, I love tht man…. ever since I first heard his summer of ’69…the passion with which he sings tht song is unbelievable! And then there’s everything I do, which just melts my heart.

So I decided I had to go to the concert…. how I wish things were that easy! Trust me, going alone for a concert to b’lore all alone (not to mention cutting classes) from tvm is something that’s definitely not my mom’s gonna approve that easy…it doesn’t help much if U’re a girl too:-( …I could deal with all that (I’m stubborn, u know…. and when its Bryan Adams concert in question, I would rather die of a hunger strike than miss it!)…But then again, life can be very funny sometimes…all these days, I’ve waited for that concert to occur and when it is happening…I’m already committed to something the previous day- something that I can do nothing about :-(((….

And this ‘ I’ll die if I don’t go to the concert!’ is esp. coz of 2 reasons…

Number one…i always always had a special thing for singers (esp. the male ones) …not even the best looking off all actors had tht special place in my mind (OK, maybe Richard Gere perhaps…. but thts coz he’s VERY VERY charismatic:D ) …perhaps coz its something I can never ever do, no matter how desperately I try …I love the most wildest of songs as much as I love sweet romantic slow-dancing kinda ones which absolutely turns me on like no other….now that I examine it closely, the most crushes I’ve had were on good singers, famous or the ones from ur own class. The unbelievably good singer from westlife, Enrique…u name it, I like ‘em all. I got all over them, but this thing for Bryan Adams is not a crush, I mean he sings soo well…its much worthier than a crush! I guess, my special thing for Bryan Adams is something that’s gonna be with me for a long long time… at least hope so ;-)

The second thing is that…I’ve always wanted to attend a concert…all my life of 19 yrs. I wanted to see how it feels like standing in the midst of a HUGE HUGE crowd, shouting my lungs out ,singing my fav. song with THE singer HIMSELF!!!maybe I’ll have to croak for days…but hey, who cares??? Its Bryan Adams U’re gonna see for god’s sake! ….hehe..the very thought gets me goin’….

And when an opportunity comes along to realize the dream I’ve had for quite a no. of yrs….i cannot go coz of this thing that I cannot just leave and come….hmm…guess I’ll have to wait a li’l longer for that dream to come true….after all, life’s all about compromises….

Who am I???? ;-)

When I first started reading blogs, my first thought (apart frm thinking tht some entries were super cool) was tht how can these people be so bold enough to in down each and everything tht comes to their mind? I mean, most blogger guys reveal their identities and it scares me to death to think tht some strangers (or even worse acquaintances who r just mere strangers apart from the fact tht we both seem to know tht each other exists) might be reading my innermost thoughts and things tht I put down on the blog.

OK, now u might think tht I’m scared about revealing the REAL ME to people…its nothing like tht. Just tht its pretty creepy to think tht the guy in ur class, whom you might not even know existed if it was not for the occasional do-I-have-to-smile look on their faces when met somewhere outside than the class, might be thinking something like ‘hey girl, I know what u think abt so-and-so or tht you have a crush on so-and-so coz I read ur blog’.

So when I had this pretty cool idea to start a blog of my own, I struggled for days thinking if I should reveal myself or just write as this girl from Trivandrum. Coz I DO want people I personally know visiting the blog and on the other hand I’m too scared to go open about all my feelings…to know me and also my feelings, I want that special thing to be reserved to people I really love and care about. This whole thing is pretty complicated…. DUMB, I know…but still dumbly complicated….

Hence I decided to remain anonymous and see where this goes….if it goes anywhere…I have promised myself that I will keep on blogging till I’m totally sick n tired of it (unless I run outta stuff which hopefully I wont or if something dreadful happens to my hand in which case it’ll be too painful to type), even if not even a fly gives a damn about this blog…( well, that’s some promise to keep for sure!).

The whole point of the blog was to explain my reason for deciding to remain anonymous…. hats off to those bloggers who come out and reveal who they are! I hope I’ll get courage to do that someday :-)

me? a blogger??? how come?

The most imp reason tht made me a blogger-wannabe was sayesha’s blog (http://sayesha.blogspot.com/). Tht blog’s just amazing and I can’t help but come back for the nxt entry on her blog. And tht set me thinking…how awesome it’d be if somebody, at least one person, appreciated my blog. Tht was long time ago…but then, me being the pessimist I’m, thought …but who would wanna see my blog? I’m not some engineer who resigned her job to be a children’s magazine editor (sayesha, if u EVER EVER happen to see this…no offence meant :D nor do I live this wild independent life some others boast of …I’m a typical 19 yr old Indian (read keralite) girl living in the capital city, tvm, with her parents…( Ok, I’m not sayin tht my life’s completely dull n uninteresting…)…but then I realized, blogging is all abt being urself…and thts what I’m gonna be…myself!!! And whether people find my blog interesting or not…well, tht’s left to ‘em. I’m just gonna publish my thoughts and perspectives…though deep down my heart I hope they do :-)

i'm there....finally... :-)

yaaaay!!!!!!! i've entered the blogosphere at last....i've been a blog addict for soo long...but my utter laziness prevented me from starting one of my own...but here i am, entering a whole new realm...:-)